As I get older little has changed, tho the short time spent unemployed a few years back did make me realize that completely locking myself away from the outside world for extended periods of time with little to no contact with the outside world or fresh air may not be the healthiest environment for my mental state. Also, having spent countless years trying to develop a creative something to devote my life to I've come to realize that what I really want to do is to keep finding new things to do.
These days, who i really want to be is Gomez Addams.
Idle rich, self motivated with a constant, unalterably bright outlook on life even though that view of life is so terrifically different than everyone else's. Different aside from those few similarly strange people that are closest to him and mean everything to him. He has an intense curiosity for the world around him and a feverous passion for his perfectly matched inamorata, Morticia.
I feel that have many of the essentials to this perfect existence already: eccentrically morbid tastes, dangerous and expensive hobbies, a long string of vices, and most important of all is the impossible to find, corpse-pale paramour who still makes my blood race every time I see her.